If you don’t already know, I have been rejected from all the clubs that required applications and interviews so far. I went through the far-flung heartfelt post-rejection depression days (I know, a lotta description here) until I eventually pulled myself together. I found myself, healed, and rebuilt myself again after re-discovering what I truly love. I regained confidence through returning back to running, writing (esp. working on this blog), and pushing myself to join new clubs.
I realized that if life (including whatever club or job or whatnot) doesn’t accept you, then freaking go start your own things. Accept yourself and make yourself better than them. It becomes not your loss, but their loss that they didn’t accept you. Same goes for jobs.
I only recently realized that club applications and endless rounds of stern-looking people judging you during interviews is only preparing us for work. This grueling process is just gonna happen again and again when we look for jobs. Is the system that great? I don’t know, but this is something I’ll need to train myself in order to survive and succeed.
So if I get rejected by company after company in the future, then I’ll just have to pull myself together again. Cry a bit, laugh a bit, run myself numb for awhile until I come back to where I am and make myself even better.
Opportunities aren’t gonna fall down on you. You have to actively seek them. Go talk to people. Go start your own things. As a student, I have it much better than adults who actually need to support themselves financially.
A few days after the rejection from the last club, I went to a new club’s first meeting without thinking much of it. I just thought, hey, why not. And then it was better than I expected.
The club’s purpose is to create a one-day event once in a few months to allow undergrad and grad students from our own college to build a course and teach it to high school students around our neighborhood. What? I’ve been wanting to do community outreach for awhile, and being able to teach your own courses (on anything!) is even cooler. I almost felt like I was in a startup, where any ideas are encouraged and the people are so passionate - eager to spend countless hours together discussing and being with each other, excited about the future.
So instead of feeling like shit, I now thank the clubs who rejected me. Because if they accepted me, I wouldn’t have gone to this meeting (cause the times clashed). I wouldn’t have had this opportunity and I wouldn’t have been able to re-discover myself again.
Because maybe those business clubs really weren’t for me. Perhaps I was inexperienced, but perhaps I also didn’t “fit” them. I wasn’t professional enough; I didn’t seem stringent or businessy-tight enough. And that’s okay.
I’ll just try to make the most of what I can do now, right. Keep doing well; keep getting better; keep becoming a better person.